“Tone it down!” She said.
Okay, I thought I can do that.
“No what I meant was, don’t call me everyday.” She said.
Okay, I thought, I can do that, I’ll text you.
“What I’m trying to say is…..I don’t need you as much. We don’t have to communicate everyday.”
Ouch! My heart cried, Okay I can do that.
I looked back and I thought I saw my own reflection. No it wasn’t me. It was her. A grown woman, fiercely independent.
I called out her name one last time and said, Well I’ll see you sometime!
” Okay Mom, I can do that!”
Half past midnight
John Mayer oozing a guitar solo
Is tonight a pill or a bowl
Anything to stop the raining thoughts
Moon drops come through my window
Damn you Pandora for playing an up tempo song when I’m in my grove
The Frey is more like it.
Now my Somber mood is gone
My heartache still lives
Deep in the circles below my eyes
It never really left
Life is funny! I imagined my weekend getaway would be exciting, fun, full of adventure and discovery! It was! My friendships are stronger! My sense of adventure is stronger. I was able to see Santa Fe and The Albuquerque New Mexico Balloon Festival and within that time on a Saturday and Sunday I walked a total of 10 miles. Now being that I am on a diet and trying to lose weight, I figured this was a good thing but, what I didn’t count on, was the pain I would experience after the walking. The pain-in my back is excruciating pain that won’t let up and today is Wednesday and it’s still going on. I tried all my medicines and nothing is working so I’m on my way to urgent care to get some steroids to bring down the swelling and inflammation. When I take the steroids, what will happen is my appetite will increase and I’m going to want to eat more; and it makes it that much harder to lose weight. Life is funny! The circle that we must keep going around and finding ways to be healthy; this is just another challenge in my circle of trying to lose weight and stay healthy. I know one thing I’m going to continue to keep walking and strengthening my muscles and ask the doctor for physical therapy to strengthen my back. Life is funny thanks for reading.